27/2/08
Discovery
For all my life, I have never seen myself as adventure-loving, outdoorsy or as a risk-taker kinda guy. The furthest i've gone to in being adventurous was probably the time i went on the Tower of Terror - a ride where you get strapped in, raised high in the sky and then dropped down in high speed. I'm also crazy about roller coaster rides, but that's pretty much it. There's no camping in the woods, mountain climbing expedition or even jogging. I hate jogging. There, i have made my point. I'm pretty much a couch potato. And a proud one at that!
I was, however, recently presented with some opportunities to change. You see, I set a few goals for me to achieve by year end 08, so i've kinda started this actionable steps to realise these goals. That's how i stumbled into this opportunity called hiking. Macha - my good friend and my badminton buddy, goes hiking at Bukit Gasing every saturday (crazy item no. 1) and she asked me to join her last week. And so i did. Woke up at 7am (crazy item no. 2) and off we went. That morning, i hiked up and down for about 2 hours straight (crazy item no. 3). Surprisingly, i managed......and naturally the situation called for a celebration; a feast! so i had two chappati with chicken curry and 5 glasses of teh o ais (not-so-crazy item no. 4).
And so begun a new discovery. I can hike! and i shall do so every saturday from now onwards. Wish me luck!
Unfortunately, with a positive new discovery, comes a not-so-positive new discovery. I recently tried something for the first time. I hesitated at first, but when the time came and i was face-to-face with the decision, i decided against my better judgement. And i'm afraid i kinda enjoyed it..............so that only means that sequals are now in the making. I still have my guard up though, am not ready (and i probably shouldn't) to plunge into the adventure hole just yet, so i'm gonna take it slow.......and steady....and safe (please let it be safe...).
And i have a back up, just in case things go south. So, please, keep your handphone on ya face! And thanks for saying yes, buddy!
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Sunday, February 17, 2008
17/2/08
Secret Identity
I saw the movie Jumper today with a friend. It's a pretty cool movie - a bit of action, not too much of romance, some special effects.
It also reminded me of a friend. In one of the scene, the girl (there's always a girl) said to the guy (and there's always a guy chasing the girl) "It's okay if you don't wanna tell me everything, just don't lie to me' and bam!! This friend's face comes to mind. Here's the lowdown; I have this friend, TI. We've been friends for 3-4 years now i think. But we haven't talk or see each other for about a year or more now. But yeah, i suppose i haven't been making too much an effort myself. I mean i've tried to keep in touch, every once in a long while (hehehe)....but i'm not a scrub, or a stalker, so i figure, either the calls come back or that's that.
And then there's the rumor (i call everything a rumor unless it's proven to be true) that says that TI is not even TI. and that TI wasn't doing what he said he was doing. and that he is pissed that another friend found out about his 'secret identity' or i guess in this case real self. When i heard about this, my first reaction was "No, no way, he would tell me if that's the case" "I mean, he should know me well to trust me with these things". I guess it's always been my hope to be the person who's trusted by friends, you know, to confide and stuff.......so maybe that explains my first reaction. After a while, as i reflect on it more and more, i have to say that it is possible that the rumor is indeed true. There have been signs, certain things that was a bit unusual. Hmmm.......i don't know.
The thing is, i dun actually like to speculate. It has always been my preference to get clarification straight from the actual party. So i did, and it wasn't welcomed as much as i expected it to be. So, instead of "tell me the truth", i chose "I don't want to assume, so i'm asking you, and if you say yes, then i'll believe it's a yes, if you say no, then i'll believe it's a no. I didn't get either one. What i got was more of a "It's up to you, whether you would want to believe me or the others". At that point, i didn't want to repeat my question, so i just changed the topic. I have said it before to him - "It's okay if you're not comfortable telling me everything, it's cool, i understand, it's not my right to know anyway. Just don't lie to my face".
So yeah, i am in the opinion that we all have our own demon and we have every right to keep certain things to ourself. No other human owns us, so if we have our own reason for the lie we have to make and live with, no justification is needed.
So if you ever read this, TI, here's what you should know: I am still very much a friend. Even if the rumor is true, i won't be mad. I won't be mad because i'm sure that you have your reasons for doing so. I have my own share of lies in my life, so i sort of understand. And if the rumor is just a rumor, then tell me so. You have my word that i will not use it against you. I would very much like to help, but only if it's wanted.
I'd like to think that at the very least, you know me enough to believe in what i'm saying.
If not, then i guess there's nothing else left to do. Whatever will be, will be.
Secret Identity
I saw the movie Jumper today with a friend. It's a pretty cool movie - a bit of action, not too much of romance, some special effects.
It also reminded me of a friend. In one of the scene, the girl (there's always a girl) said to the guy (and there's always a guy chasing the girl) "It's okay if you don't wanna tell me everything, just don't lie to me' and bam!! This friend's face comes to mind. Here's the lowdown; I have this friend, TI. We've been friends for 3-4 years now i think. But we haven't talk or see each other for about a year or more now. But yeah, i suppose i haven't been making too much an effort myself. I mean i've tried to keep in touch, every once in a long while (hehehe)....but i'm not a scrub, or a stalker, so i figure, either the calls come back or that's that.
And then there's the rumor (i call everything a rumor unless it's proven to be true) that says that TI is not even TI. and that TI wasn't doing what he said he was doing. and that he is pissed that another friend found out about his 'secret identity' or i guess in this case real self. When i heard about this, my first reaction was "No, no way, he would tell me if that's the case" "I mean, he should know me well to trust me with these things". I guess it's always been my hope to be the person who's trusted by friends, you know, to confide and stuff.......so maybe that explains my first reaction. After a while, as i reflect on it more and more, i have to say that it is possible that the rumor is indeed true. There have been signs, certain things that was a bit unusual. Hmmm.......i don't know.
The thing is, i dun actually like to speculate. It has always been my preference to get clarification straight from the actual party. So i did, and it wasn't welcomed as much as i expected it to be. So, instead of "tell me the truth", i chose "I don't want to assume, so i'm asking you, and if you say yes, then i'll believe it's a yes, if you say no, then i'll believe it's a no. I didn't get either one. What i got was more of a "It's up to you, whether you would want to believe me or the others". At that point, i didn't want to repeat my question, so i just changed the topic. I have said it before to him - "It's okay if you're not comfortable telling me everything, it's cool, i understand, it's not my right to know anyway. Just don't lie to my face".
So yeah, i am in the opinion that we all have our own demon and we have every right to keep certain things to ourself. No other human owns us, so if we have our own reason for the lie we have to make and live with, no justification is needed.
So if you ever read this, TI, here's what you should know: I am still very much a friend. Even if the rumor is true, i won't be mad. I won't be mad because i'm sure that you have your reasons for doing so. I have my own share of lies in my life, so i sort of understand. And if the rumor is just a rumor, then tell me so. You have my word that i will not use it against you. I would very much like to help, but only if it's wanted.
I'd like to think that at the very least, you know me enough to believe in what i'm saying.
If not, then i guess there's nothing else left to do. Whatever will be, will be.
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